Ok ok, now people, stop complaining i don't blog anymore.

For the past few days/weeks i've been down.. Really really down:'(. The worst thing in my life happened and i've least expected it most to happen. But what happens, happened, all i could do is to mend my heart up again and to let the past be the past. I wouldn't talk much 'bout this anymore or rather here cuz only a few people need to know.

I love you, brenda, floris, jolene, everyone. Who cared for me in every way possible. To see me cry for the first time and to hear all my sorrows. I can't thank my best friends in the world enough! 

The trust and believe is lost, but the love is not. I opened my heart for you, i love you with everything i have. I don't trust you at all now, but i hope you will build back up my trust for you. I hope you will love me as much as you do in the past or even more, cuz i still do love you as much as the day i found out i unknowingly fell for you. I didn't knew i will fall this deep. I love you, with all my heart and might, and i will bring this love to my grave and shall death do us apart.

"I will protect you", that's what you told me that day in the park. I will take you for your words and this is the first small little trust i've planted in you after the lost.